is it wrong..??

haiz..i dunno wat shuld i say anymore..am i changing in a good or bad way..? i juz hard to explain n find the answer for my self..haiz....i juz noe that i'm not a gud n bad person either..if u wan to say i'm bad oso can..coz i really dun care anymore,my fren there are still exist but are they the one that has change or me, or all still the same but days to days ppl will show wat they are? hav u show ur true color? haiz..for a reason i wan to cry but for some reason again wat for i cry..? i juz wan to let my feeling out but still i wish i could cry like the heavy rain..!@.o?

i dunno how to explain in word how i feel now, i wan to say it but it juz wont come out coz juz dunno wat to say, not that i not become me but every minutes of my life i observe n found out dat my life cannot be too straight, at first honest is in my dictionary of life, but the more i grew in this cruel world, i realize that there is no honesty too live..not up to 1o% of ppl will say the truth about them self..may b juz 1% of ppl in this world can say the truth, but the rest is juz a lie..=(

i juz cannot understand y ppl cannot say the truth, may b its hard but keep lying will make all problem more worse, if juz can say it, better do coz all the thing become more complicated now..haiz..

i hav so many thing in my mind now, juz too many till i sometime wanna shout out loud or hit sumthing or sumone.. i juz too pissed of to sumthing dat if u noe sumthing juz say it, dun hide it, ...n am i crazy coz wan to care for it or my fren...y am i the type that care so much..and now i juz noe that there are person that exist that dun care bout their fren but wan ppl care for them, tell me if i'm wrong coz, care still care but the care is like juz wanted to become fren not really care dat type...i juz couldnt explain bout this type of person..may b i think too much but..hope in future he matureness will come...

haiz..c ..ody say lo mix2 ..haiz..dunno wat the crap i'm talking bout but this is wat i feel now...