Everybody is Criminal..

True..?? well we juz have to ask our self if its true or not...even a smallest thing dat we intentionally do it also can say its wrong..not only that, even we talk people back also counted as a criminal...small criminal that is our self made...

tummy happy hour day..haha

At Heng Long Restaurant...

My meal..(forgot the name)hehe

Alice food...

Nex Destination>> TEXAS<< but b4 that we did go to secret recipe buy piece of cake for each others...take away..hehe

GOD BLESS ME PLZ..

i'm struggling again with my future...to continue or stop now...

Wonderful life?????

I hav been working at here for 5 mnths 2 week already..but i dun think i can handle much pressure anymore...i getting stresa at here..not that other working place have no pressure but its gud to work at a place wer u din have any damily relate inside it...

All i can see here is the negative side of it...enuf i see it at home but i need to handle it at work again...i dunno how long i'm gonna live if staying at here much longer..jz its killing inside of me....seems like i dun hav feeling anymore..how i wish i hav a chance like others too...

There so much i wan to say at here but still i cant let it out..may b dats y i'm still stress out...haiz..not dat i dun wan to be fren or socialise wit them but i prefer stay quite than having my self mad wit no reason...i'm easily to get mad nowadays...i think more worst than b4...coz i dun like to talk much ...yes i still like to hang out wit my fren...but i can feel some of them are avoiding me...may b i did something wrong to them...n some..i juz feel like when they telling their problem..i am there to help..but when i'm in need of their shoulder...like they are nt there...juz like i dun feel it...i dun undersand y...n yet i keep adding stress to my only fren where i feel comfortable telling my problem....i noe she have problem too but i juz need some1 to talk to n i also dint noe y even i dint owes hangout wit her like i hanging out wit other..but wit her...i dun feel like i need to hide my problem...may b she's the true fren which is hard to find now....haiz..

Now i am here think of my decision to quit b4 gt another job or quit when i already find another job...???? I juz need to rest my mind too...keep having headache for the past few month...haiz..hope nothing serious wit my health...

nothing much ..nothing less ..

OY dis is happening...? All i wan is a happy life..normal life.. life that i dream of.. but y now its is far from what i imagine when i was kid...huh...

For some reason...i feel so so tired trying to explain wat i am for those who still dint noe me...yes i'm hard to be understand but y..y did even oredy known me for so long but still dint noe me how exactly i am...the reason i'm avoiding all of it is that bcoz i dun wan to make such small thing bcome really big...its not important but i do feel really sad when the same person hurt me many2 time ... Yes i find that money is really important for me..well who doesnt..? But the thing that i wan to clearify here is..the money thet i important only the money from my own earning...i dint ask for ur money.. i dint say money is really2 that important than others but now..money i have to put on top of my list...bcoz...without money..how i wan to care bout others thing..how i wan to care bout my family..my self...how? Can u tell me that..?

I noe its nonsense..i noe i say money is my 1st love..but y u dun even think..if i ordy say money is my 1st love..i sure already go n put myself such low grade juz to pursue money..so think it back..my money is my 1st love..because i earn it..but if my familybis ij need of me..my family is the very 1st love on top of money...money sure is important in our life but some might get lost on this matter but i'm nt 1 of those... I still remember n noe who i am...

good thing?

Too many thing happen lately..haiz..will there gonna b a gud day for me one day ...juz hope after all of dis gonna b a gud day...hope for better things to happen..crossing finger..god..plz bless ur child...amen...

left behind..???

i wanted to have a carrier ..but where n when will i get it...its like now getting to late for me to noe which path should i really go...i no..i'm alone in this world...all my frens...i juz dunno wat to do anymore...i juz cant really let it get to me...i juz wanted to have frens that i can count on but sometimes i feel like there's no one there for me...there's only a few but how long it can stand...now i feel like i have changed again..may b i'm the one that keep on changing...sometimes i juz feel like running from all of this...haiz...now yes i still have closed frens...but i feel like we are getting apart...i really miss the old us...where we can meet...can talk juz about anything...all of them..i do miss them..but seen all the thing that ever happen..not that i dint forget bout that but i juz cant forget..i do forgive them but juz still got something that bother me so much till it make me only wan to be alone, dreaming all day..
Enuf with my frens..its my working place now...haiz..how i wish i can work at a place wer can give me a steady feeling even its mean i need to work hard...but i dun mind...i wan to work hard but all i wan n ask for is to work in environment which i can feel safe not scare all the time...n most important is to be the real me...oh god...juz help guide ur child here...amen...

not only that...in my family..i do feel sumtimes juz too locked inside a cage...haiz...i juz wish i can fly from this cage..but still can return without being locked back...i noe to took care of my self..yes sumtimes i'm so un-aware of my life but its part of learning right...am i ask too much..???haiz..hope after this all gonna get better soon...bless me n all ur child oh god...amen...

Things to do..

The age of 30.....get a stable job...!!!(s must..), get my own car, save a lot lot lot of money so dat can go to europe....(someday..~~~)...i also really wan go to climb the mount kinabalu...wer is a must for a sabahan..my opinion la..hehe..beside that..i also wan my parents go to a nice vacation..not island la..may b paris or england..??...

The age of 35....Buy a house...( for sure need one, gal, we must have our own house..hehe)....also save a looooottttt of money again so dat i can visit to new york( a dream city for everyone)...n marry may b..??( isnt it too late..??) haha

The age of 40...go to sipadan,mabul wer a sabahan shuld spend their money on...kakakaka....not all la..but its my dream to go there wit my own money bha..hehehe...

For now...i only wan to have this in my life...slowly make all perfect....hehehe...dun rushy2....hehehe

2NE1 - LONELY [HD]

(Translation Lyrics)
The words I’m saying right now, I don’t know if they’ll hurt you
They’ll probably make you hate me forever
You, saying that I’m not the same as I used to be, is not completely untrue
This changed me is a stranger to myself as well
You are so kind but
That’s the way you are but oh
I don’t know I don’t know
Why I am like this
We were so in love, and you’re here now but oh
I don’t know
I want to find myself now
Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this person horrible person I am
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
You didn’t do anything wrong, I’m the strange one
It seems I’ve already been prepared long ago, for our breakup
I really wanted to treat you well, out of all the times, why is it when I’m confronted by love
I am shrinking away & am lonely endlessly
You are so kind but
That’s the way you are but oh
I don’t know I don’t know
Why I am like this
We were so in love, and you’re here now but oh
I don’t know
I want to find myself now
Baby I’m sorry, even when I’m with you, I’m Lonely
I must be lacking when it comes to love, please forgive this person horrible person I am
I’m sorry, this is your and my story
I must not be worthy of this thing called love, even though I’m by your side
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Cuz I’m just another girl
This night is lonely, I
Can’t take any more, Good bye
Cuz I’m just another girl
I’m so lonely
Even though I’m by your side right now
Baby I’m so lonely
Lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely lonely lonely
Baby I’m so lonely lonely lonely

21...

haha..i guess i have done so much at the age of 18 till now i really feel so tired at the age of 21- wer it shuld be more fun...may b coz work too stress gua...haiz..

now i juz waiting for another time to quit again...i really cant stay any longer..but juz for a few month...oh god ...plz2 bless ur child...do bless me have a nice job in future where i really feel the energy to go work everyday n not juz coz i need to...amen...=) thx for everything too...

now i already work for 7 month for different places...which only two..hehe...sometimes, i juz felt like its my routine already...hmm...how boring right? hehe...

now i really wan find a day to hang out with my fren..really no such free time right now..everytime after work owes feel tired...then need wake up for the nex day...even saturday, sunday n PH  also not enuf...haiz...i really need a looonnnngggggg vacation now....do give me a price for go a long holiday...hehehe...

i do miss my others fren which i totally lost contact with them already...i miss them very2 much...but i juz cannt  find them already...coz its totally different now...haiz..sumtimes i juz dun noe wat i've done till been treated like dis...so sad my life...but frens...do noe dis...not that i dun wan to be unfren or dun wan to find u guys, return u guys call, msg but i juz dun wan to be the person wer when u guys need help then only my phone ring ....i'm tired be dat person already...juz do plz tell me if u guys really wan be fren wit me or not...i dun care if u dun have money, dun have car, not pretty, not perfect...coz NO BODY DOES...everyone not perfect...i'm not that materialistic frens...but disappointed wit some of the people i knew is like dis...may b they are like dat, only will find u when u are already have it all but if u find me coz u juz wan to show off...then better stop it...i rather not seeing u guys n missing u guys only than meet ... coz u noe wat...i feel scared everytime i saw the number when my phone ring...i scare wat it will b this time...i dun wan to be the gud person anymore...y cant i be the bad side...?? but juz hope u guys do change too....change too good... 

years after...

At sandakan now...2nd day already...miss dis place so much...too many memories here..feel like going for a walk now but not a safe place to b alone on the side walk...how nice if my fren were here..this place still confused me...its not a big area ( big also la) but then if u not familiar with this place..u will feel like this place is bigger than KK area...hehe...

N here i am, sitting at the lobby ( cant connect to the wi-fi if at room), updating my blog, listen songs, seeing the night view(walk way) n do nothing already...haiz...how nice if can go to the habour now...so miss the ocean sound..with a few shots n then juz sit there...huh...so nice...haha...dreaming saja...hehe...

It Will Come..

ya, no worry is all i need to say to my self, coz everything i go tru now sure gonna have a good result in the future(hope so, hehe) i noe i dun have anything right now, not anything, wat i mean is i noe i cant go with the flow right now but its all juz temporary or shuld i say no need to go dat fast...yup..it is true..its like i'm walking in such lost right now but i noe all is happen for a good reason...

Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts Official Video

Alright - Pitbull ft. Machel Montano LYRICS ON SCREEN VIDEO HD NEW SONG ...

Kesha - Disgusting Lyrics

BLOW - KESHA NEW OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO!

For Good or Bad ??

wow...juz not wat i expected...its like a dream...well..may b its juz nothing...so no need think much bout it..but today too many expected thing happen to me..its like unbelievable...haha..got a bit funny thou...well..juz really hope its not a bad thing...juz my problem now is dunno how to reply...how ar..?? hmm...i juz dun noe shuld i give or not..hmm...

haiz...not juz dat...the time is ticking n i juz cant help thinking wat will happen to me after another month by month passes by n i still stuck at there..i juz really hope my carrier will soon b in my hand...i really wan that chance....everybody does...

how long can i take it....???

too heavy...that the word that can describe my situation now...may b all of us is in this situation...where we juz feel the burden we need to carry is juz to heavy for us to take n bring along with us....in my case i juz like others...dunno how to express or tell anyone wat actually my problem is...i noe..i can be happy like nothing happen but truly n honestly...its not as wat u all see...i juz same as others..

arrgghh..! juz feel like wanna run away from all of this...but run till where, when..? how i wish it juz a dream...but hope this burden will keep getting me stronger n i noe god carry a more heavy burden than i am...so may b this is another part of challenge in life..we juz have to take it...god, let us carry the burden together but wat i wan is only bless ur child n juz make me more strong to move on..bless us oh god..amen...tq..

Brave Girl - Do You Know? 

>mp3 version haven out yet really wan download dis song, who know where can download it , do tell me =) <

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no topic for this post...y..? juz dun feel like giving one...hehe..hmm...its been a month...n i really2 feel like its not my carrier for doing this job...i juz still searching for sumthing dat suite my interest...haiz...so bored wit it..ya like people say, the pay is high..but i juz dint feel like i wan to do it for the rest of my life...how i wish i can get an offer that really suite my self..

well peeps...its april now...a month b4 my big day..hehehe...so scared getting old actually...if can i wan o go back to wer i am 18 owes..hahaha...but 18 cant do much so 21 will do...hope to b 21 forever...but..juz a dream that will never come true..haha..hope by the day, i can get wat i wan...hehehe...

MYMP - Especially For You with lyrics

<3<3

Emily Osment - Let's Be Friends (Video)

this song is superb..!!! hehe..nice song n mv...

Emily Osment - Lovesick

Holiday n Vacation...!!!!

I really need it so bad coz now i juz cant help it anymore..i really need to relax my self, mentally n physically...arrggghhh ...!!!!! really feel like wan to scream n let it all out...i juz feel so tired lately...cant do any better if i dint go for a vacation soon...!!! haiz...but i really do miss my college life..no need to be this hard on my self in everything...so hope can turn back time, *dreaming* haiz...hehe..well..juz hope sumthing good waiting for me in future...hope sooner..!!!! hehehe...

getting tired or it juz the way it shuld b....?

The story for today is...i'm juz wondering y i really2 feel so tired rather than enjoying my job now..i juz feel like quiting but its not dat easy...haiz..everyday working like dis is really2 tired for me...its not that i feel fun doing my work coz it such an easy work for some people ..yes it is thou but i juz dun like it...i more into challenging work..not too hard la..i oso noe my capabilities to do sumthing...but juz dat..i more to fun, exciting n not bored n only specific to one simple thing...it juz not crossing my mind now to settle down doing such thing...i still wan find sumthing to be feel like i'm being my self doing that work..not only doing it for money but then i wan do sumthing that i do for my self...haiz..when will the time come...? Oh God..Do Bless Ur Child ya...Amen...

boring life..?

So here am i again...writing about my life...nothing special happen in my life lately...juz all i do is work work n work...throwing my youth to go n work for my better future.?? i'm juz wondering..is it the right path that i choose..?? am i not to early to sacrifice my life as getting OLDER! n still work with the path that not my choice..haiz...really2 miss my teenage life...how i miss my past, my fun...but how come there is no more now... ?

But in a positive way...its not that bad coz i can have my own income now..no need to rely on my parents...but how i wish i can get a better job so dat can help wat i can to help reduce their burden...not dat i dun care but it juz..wat i earn now is really not enuf..i feel like its not worthed for me to spend it to buy things....but eat ofcoz need la..hehehe...but then i really2 hope in my future there will b a bright n such cheerful way waiting for me...hehehe...

My question is...is it wrong to go so fast in my life now or is it how life shuld go if u wan to move on...hehe..coz..as i noe...TIME DUN WAIT FOR U .....so remind it we are the one that chasing the time...coz once the time has past..it will never come back again...

SAY IT IN MILLIONS TIME BUT DUN U REGRET IT LATER...!!!

Not that you being nice is bad but dun be to nice to people because someday they will juz wont do the same as wat u did to them...had enuf wit all those stupid excuses..y b4 i can do it even its rain i still go n "IN" it, ..but now..juz asking for help..cant you ask somebody to help you..if you hav tour then ask for their help ...not all thing u can do on ur own...my self also ask for their help..may b you dun trusted them..u can ask for the slip right...??? then y its such a simple job but hard for you to do...not that i ask for u to send it to me in hand...juz ask for a simple request but it such a heavy duty for u..thanks for letting me see all of this...'appreciate' it very2 much..i noe wat really important for you..this is same as the thing u lie to me...say that wan to sleep at home..but y one of our frens saw u at kk...and how come sleep at home can go to party...so funny leh u...plz dun lie to me straight to my face..if you wan to lie...lie with strategy..if u dun have one...then juz tell the truth...its easier for me to know it on the spot rather than noe it after the scene...dun u feel weird...wow...if like dat i also wan to tell lie la..its such a fun thing to do o kan...

Some times i wonder how can u change so drastic o is this how u are...??? may b back then we do not noe u dat much ... i heard a lot of story about u...but when we ask the truth , u still wan to lie...how come..wat u wan to hide from us...y..?? do u think we wan care dat much ..??? one think is...people only start to talking about u when u hide sumthing n show weirdness in front us.. is it make u feel better..??? haiz...really2 couldnt stand to talk, hear n see all those excuses from u....haiz...

Who Will Be...??? Hmm..haha

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Only Girl In The World For You..????!!!!

WoW...so great if really got someone sang for me ....hahahaha...STOP DREAMING LA!!! ahahaha

Being Fade Away By Time...

Its like ages since i have fun, go out, hang out wit my fren...may b coz of many thing i need to settle before the end of February...so busy month i guess...hope nex month to be better, relax month for me....and not only that...also hope for a gud opportunities come to me soon...now it juz "safe" condition for me in my life, carrier...but i wont juz stop at here...i still have and want to move on....make my self live better life...may b my time not gonna come that fast right...?so juz hope and juz pray for the gud things to come...

Back to the story...after for sometime feel like dis...i juz feel like, its ok to be disappear from here..it juz so relief when there is not much trouble for me in my social life...as my problem now is only with my work...stress of coz ...but then it juz not much to think about...well..and kinda feel so peace...peace like i'm on holiday at hawaii or bali...!...wow!!..hahahaa...such a dreamer...! haha...hmm...it might happen right ..well of coz we juz wan to live a peaceful live but then if we live to peaceful ...i dun think its normal as human we live in this world...as "the above" also suffer when in earth...

So lets follow the flow...may b it will bring us to somewhere where we also cant think of we can go there..hehehe....but juz hope that we follow the right path...as it no time to turn back n do all over again...as now i have to move on to nex level i think in my life...as this also a big decision for me to do...so juz hope this a gud choice for me for now...its not the end yet...hehe...i promise u, my self and also to my future that i will do the best i can to make my self more better than before...i really also hope i will have the chance and courage to develop my self to the next, more higher level of life so i wont regret my life in the future..

Getting Near....

Soon gonna move to another / new work environment place...still not know if its gud or bad but juz still scare to start at new place...

May b i make decision so fast without think twice..hmm..well, last time also the same right..hehe..but then if think back...it might be the right choice to leave now as the sooner the better...more i kept my self at there..the more i change / turn into sumthing really bad..sumthing which can make people hate me...as now i start to feel the heat again...i start to feel mad even for a small thing..as it can make me feel so moody all the time...

So now..juz left 4 days for me to go...juz hope everything gonna be okay...as this is juz temporary is hope...i really hope can get a better place /offer for my future...haiz...when will me time come..or will it come..??? juz hope god heard my prayer...amen...

will it...

Sometimes we try hard to find the answer we want...but will it be an answer for all our question...will it be end someday when we stop searching.. will it be complete after we find it...may b it will..ma b it wont...all we do in our life is 50-50 chances ...either it will work..or not...but we cant juz giving up our hope like dat..even how hard it is...we juz have to try ....we will b such a coward if we never try but then even try to run from it...

Its not easy, yes all people like dat...including me..but some thing we juz have to force our self to do it...we juz cant wait for a magical thing to happen...may b wat we do now will have a gud return someday...may b not in a short time but we juz have to believe right....gods always beside us...

Nex Move...

Hmm..juz 4 month at there...but then..the place is not a gud place to work anymore..to many complication inside...all people inside the company has been taken from all of his old work place..well..for me its not a gud thing...slowly, the place sure bcome like hell...

Executive operation but operation job seems like i been doing it all over again since now my position is only admin n account but since shu fen has gone for a month for her guide course...seems like i replacing her job not the EXECUTIVE OPERATION dat newly been hired dis month....haiz..only knew how to order people wat to do, but juz a simple booking also cant do..haiz...it juz i cant take more of that anymore...it so stress...wat i do is really not worthed n cant compare with wat i get...but y they do less but get more...

So today i sent my R letter to the boss...well..i dun care anymore...may b its too fast for me to go but i juz feel so tired already...beside wat i do now also not wat i really wan to do...so y not i go for higher offer but still not i like to do...its the same isnt it...how i wish i can stick to juz one place to work ....wer the place is really suite me ...haiz...

feel like talking...

i feel like i need someone to talk to now...i do wan a person beside me can listen to wat i wan to say...even if not..juz accompany me chit chat..

haiz..wat shuld i do my fren..i really so stress...

SInce The Day It Start...

How to say , people say the place i work is really nice n is far better than other place..but for me, it is nice but i juz really cant work at there...the feeling i hav while work at there hard to describe, hard to explain n make people understand...may b they can if they are in my shoe...haiz...i juz cant stand it anymore...is it the feng shui at there really not good for me for my carrier...its like keep on have problem i need to face ...y juz me ??? its really unfair...i dunno how to face the coming day when i still at there..i juz wan to quit...i really2 wan quit...i really hope there is a gud place for me to work, a place where i can social n where i can work comfortable without care others thought....y i juz cant find a place like dat...y my fate is like dis...

Haiz...its not easy for me to say the reason when i'm not sure if it right to tell u guys...the day i start work at there is not because of my qualification but juz bcoz wat the boss know i ever practical at where...if that borders u guys....may b not but for me..its really borders me a lot..its not simply a gud place where i work now...its also complicated as others place too...i noe that...but y there is no place where the working environment is OK...????

Oh god...plz bless your child to go tru the day in this earth...Amen...

You Heart Me , I Heart You Back...

Crazy with this song..!!!!! hahaha...nice song...

Is There Any Misunderstanding ???

hmm...i juz feel like there is misunderstanding..FB getting sucks everyday...juz feel like it is a place wer u can get hurt but people...hmmm....i dun mind if u wan to say the truth about wat u dun like about me but y so mysterious ne..?? it juz make people more in a world of puzzle....

NATURAL KITCHEN @ SHABU SHABU at Suria Sabah

OMG....today juz really bad day to go eat SHABU SHABU at suria sabah...really2 soi...may b she is new worker but her attitude treating customer is really bad...how come she wan work at there as a waitress if dun wan to treat people nice..even no smile on her face...duh..!!! we ever been there lo..u think its our 1st time ka...haiz...really2 bad service....

b4 this, the guy also treat like shit...now this gal pula..really2 dun noe how them can got the job...even wan see their face oso me feel wan slap o...haiz...the food there really good..but the service is far behind from their food quality...is really far different....

Nex time sure i will go there coz i juz really love eat at there...hehe..luckily for their food...huh..if not...sure many people ordy go ....nyways...thanks fro toda food i really feel full till now..hahaha..go eat with ALICE at McD and then walk to Suria Sabah for SHABU SHABU...hahaha..luckily we meet at 2 juz now..if its since morning..i guess we will be eating a lot all the food at kk..hahahahhaa...but juz a enjoy day even it juz a two of us...miss the other member...haiz...hope can hang out wit other nex time...waiting for it...hehehehe...

Oh No...!!!

Haiz...holiday ending soon....so bored with my work now..wat i do now really not involve anything in wat i learn..haiz...such waste of time n money only.....i really2 tired to go work at my current place now..haiz...

Avril Lavigne - What The Hell Lyrics on Screen HD

like it...!<3

Such a Bad Day....!!!

It Is..!!!! today really my bad day..the worst ever...worst than breaking up, fighting with my fren...shit...!!!! haiz....now things ordy happen...so i juz have to admit the mistake n it cant be turn..!!!!

but y me leh...haiz...i owes scare for the thing to happen but now its really do happen..!!! so soi o...y ar...really still cant understand...so sad...now no mood ordy...even juz now whole day no mood...haiz...hope got reason it happen...

Time Like This...

juz couldnt imagine how my life are in this time for the past year...its really a rough time i remember...last night, i saw my posting at my fb wall...hmmm...kinda feel silly reading all it back..n all the bad memories flashing back in me...juz feel regret too doing all dat..but i can see how it make me mature by time goes by...

Now if i not forgotten, this month in the past year..i have an issue with my frens..hehe...sorry my dear frens...but think back, kinda make me sad n laughing too...because i juz see now we n b4, even have argue b4...but still can communicate with each other n still contacting with them even we dun have time to be together like b4...I REALLY MISS U GUYS...:(

the past two year is also a hard time for all of us..n i oso remember the time we all do the trip together..all those trip that we organize...are really mean so much for me...the bond that we hav really not easy to find o..hehe..

Its Time Again....

Blogging time...hehehe...hmm...as for now my life how it been so far..??? well i dunno, juz i dunno how to say...its been better or juz more worst...hmm...so funny leh my feeling dis few day ..can say almost a week lur..wan to say to sumone but i juz tot it will make my self so silly n will make all thing more worst...

I juz wanna say the truth but i really cant...i've been hiding forever..i juz dunwan to hide anymore but...haiz...scare for the worst but people say..u wouldnt noe unless u've try it...haiz..(juz wish it never happen thou)

Juz wanna cry sumtimes thinking of this matter but wat for i cry..its useless lo...it will never happen oso...haikkkzzzzz....so..juz let it be la ( been say for like every minute, day of my life dis word)

Watsoever...~~~~~v

Suddenly wanna post sumthing on FB but juz dunno wat to post n then think of blogging..hmm..also no idea wat to say d...juz really not feel so comfortable dis few day...not comfy wat but juz feel like sumthing wanna happen...a bad thing, gud thing..?? haiz..

Kinda suddenly flashing back the old days of my life...hmmm...miss it...my heart mentally n physically juz wanna be at that time again...juz how bad i wanna b there...OMG..!!!!! haiz..

Another thing had in my mind now...not 1 actually but many2 thing, juz haiz..wanna re-think of wat i wan to do for the nex 3,4,5 month .....i juz really wan to go new place of work..but juz like my fren say..i shuld take this chance to learn everything b4 take my experience to other place n take the experience for better use...i oso really got think like dat now o..true la but only dat lo..juz need to tahan2 all my boss act...haiz...GOD..REALLY2 BLESS ME O...AMEN...

What i can say again is..i really miss my frens...all of them but y everytime when meet them...we juz like nothing to say..may b all ordy go on their own way but i still wan meet n laugh wit them but sumtimes times really not allowed us all to meet..sumtimes not dat i dun wan to go meet but juz too tired, n sumtimes them tired..haiz..really so different road liao lur....but may b sumday gonna meet again but not so often gua...haiz...

But for now..i juz really miss u all o....!!!! huhuhu...i will feel so lonely sumtimes..but i juz owes remind myself that i cant do juz bcoz i lonely go do stupid thing...rush in sumthing..but juz have to remember lo , in everything happen sure got reason...really2 got reason...i still believe it even i haven saw it yet but still will owes on my mind that i will sure get the answer sumday....!!! BELIEVE is important..!!!!!

Confession..??????

Hmm...wat i never say it is still hard for me to tell...i juz no idea y i feel like this but i'm happy for u but at the same time me heart still wanna cry...(not the past..)

i juz wish sumthing could happen to make me laugh again...not that i hate u but it juz i dun wan to think bout u anymore so the only way for me to forget u is hating u...SORRY.... may b destiny is not our so juz let it go bha...:) i hope u will b happy owes ... as for me...i will owes like dis...i juz not ready for anything yet...i juz need to focus on $$$$$ ...hahaha...no la..i juz wan to work n experience many2 n learn many2 thing b4 proceed to the nex step....

If we ever meet again may b i will not talk wit u but juz see la..i dunno wat will happen but i really wan meet u n at the same time do not wish that to happen..i juz feel so scare sometime when think of u..i dunno y...hope we can b fren but the way it all happen is so rush n juz so not logic...owes no mood when think of u but happy to ever knew u...thanks for become my frens...

BUSYYY...!!!!!

haiz...been busy for a few day....juz wanna have a rest in my life like b4 but juz will never had it again...sometimes i juz feel so damn tired with my life...but i noe i cant quit it yet...i juz still need to work hard n juz really need to learn sumthing for my future....i juz can feel there is sumthing for me in future..but juz dunno wat....i really cant wait for it but juz hav to...haiz...wish it come fast2...

As for my social life...i not like b4 d...now seems so lazy to do anything...owes wanna stay at home..so lazy wan go out, so lazy wan buy thing, so lazy wan to move la...but well...we hav to do it sumday...but may b coz of too tired of everyday work so dats y i feel so not in the mood...

My relationship wit family still like b4...owes the same even hav some problem i cant avoid but still this is the only place i can escape from outside world but sumtime, i juz cant really stand in here also..

For my working environment...haiz...its the difficult thing i need to handle which i have to work at place i really2 DUN LIKE...i juz dunno wat i dun like but it juz got sumthing at there that make me not feel ok wit it...juz owes got sumthing me wan to protest ...i really hope i will have better future for wat will come in my life...

My fren n i juz sumtimes i dunno wat i wan to say anymore...i still care for them but juz..there is no more to say...them are so quite so it seems like i only b a stupid person in the world care bout them...may b tired to b treat like dat so dats y i oso dun really care anymore...well...sumtimes i oso feel like i juz been used for sumthing to get sumthing from them but i make my self a fool for not wanna hurt them but sorry if i ever hurt coz i oso a human...have heart, can feel pain...for some of my fren..i noe only if u guys got problem only u guys find me..when u guys happy, me will at back of ur mind but i dun care anymore la...juz do watever u guys wan...juz find me whenever u guys wan...i am TOO tired already...

hmm..for upcoming days..i juz hope my days will get more better..hope for a better offer of job this year soon....i really wan it ...GOD BLESS UR CHILD HERE....AMEN...