its a blessed day....

Today is shu fen bufday...she is turning 21st ... i think dis is the hardest bufday to plan oso..even thou its last minute plan but can say its a 80% success..hehehe...i say its hard bcoz at 1st she ordy plan her bufday that she buy this buy dat...but than we oso lie to her that some of our frens cant come..then she start to "ngam charm" n can see she like sad2 ordy but yeah we wan her feel dat way..hahaha...so bad o us..hehehe...

but then we just scare its too late ordy coz mun oso need back home fast2 so we keep calling them alice, josephine , eddie n lucy....n finally they come n then we juz hope all goes well...on the process...lighter pula the problem...(aiyo)..so we borrow from one of the guy there but soi pula..ada ka no gas the lighter...(haiz)...so after dat one of the guy (worker there oso) help us light the candle...then we rush to the one of the band there..( kebetulan is there..how lucky is us..hehe) then we ask request to play the bufday song..thanks to them our plan more success...then we call shu fen from behind there, coz mun wan charge hp..!! haha...so we call them both to the band there n SURPRISE...!!!! yeahhhh...!!!! hehehehe...

After the whole surprise thing ...we find a seat and then call drink n food n oso eat the cake...we oso gave some to share wit the band coz thanks for their help..hehehe...so all we do is snap snap n snap some more...almost 9:30pm we hav to leave the place coz mun2 hav to go home...hehehe...so b4 we go we still didi snap some picture...after finish snaping, we all go our own way ..say bye2 to mun n shufen...so we follow eddie car to go home...but then we change plan ...we go n take picture at warisan n water front again...hahaha..sot2 de we...at 10pm we oso have to go home n ngam2 oso our camera finish battery...(haiz..!!!) hahaha..but ok la...many picture oso ordy we take..hehehehe....

On the way go home, we ask eddie to make loud the song..hehe..(so missed the day we did it b4) ...so we sang in the car n shout2..hahaha...then we all reach our home...so we say bye2 when josephine 1st kena send home then me....

The blessed thing is, may b its gud oso that me n josephine is communicate wit each other ordy but let the time do his job...so this is my story..hehehe...now me wan to sleep ordy...so sleepy...nite2 all...thats all for now...n Happy Bufday Shu fen...!!!! hehehe....

not a big deal but juz a big matter..?

hmm...actually i juz dunno wat is went wrong wit me...but today i juz not in the total mood to do anything...juz feel so depressed with everything...to think of many thing dat happen in my life for the whole year is juz a tragic...well..dis year is really juz not goin so well for me...i juz dunno wat went wrong but may b i put the hope to high till i cant reach then i fell to the ground...

wat to b done nex is juz unpredictable...i juz cant think of any solution or a way for me to get tru it..so i kinda feel happy coz dis year is soon goona end..but i juz dunno either for the nex year shuld b a joy or not..i juz cant feel the happiness that people feel...i juz feel like nothing for the future that come...is it my heart has gone..? i also dunno if i will find it again or not...but for sure it will b gone for a very long time...

last christmas , i juz dint feel to celebrate it..but dis year..i cant wait for it to come..but at the same time...the sorrow is still covering my joyous ....shuld i left it or handle it..?? i dunno too...coz i'm not dat such "strong" person anymore...i juz dint hav the courage to handle all that happen in my life..if can..i juz wan to end all of it...but i cant....i dint have the spirit to fight it anymore....i juz feel so empty all for sudden in my life...n i noe..there is nothing can cover it........................

December Soon Meets January....

Wow...! Juz cant believe that its already the last month for the whole year n soon gonna ready for a whole new year again....but will it bring any differences if the year is changing..may b our age, our working place, our studies future...but then our life will still b the same...not the same as b4 but we juz a human that cant change into anything dramatic ...we juz can live in this world till the day our life ended....

but then, we cant change the way we are, but we can change the way how we live but i noe its not easy...its gonna take a life time to took the chance to have it ....so, this year will soon end n the life of my 20th years living in this world also gonna soon end but not end like dying...but end means to the nex stage...i dunno if i'm ready for it yet but i noe its not gonna bring any differences..or may b i'm refuse to take the changes...or juz not likely to take such huge changes in life...but i noe i have to be ready for anything...

nyways...this the month of celebration, christmas n new year is together in a month its a big, huge n really a joyous month that we need to celebrate...